going home

Date: Monday, May 30, 2005
Time: 9:40:00 PM

hols start

finally june holiday has started but the sad thing is, i dun feel that i'm having holidays now. tutorials, remedials, extra lessons and lots and lots of homework...the amount of work that i have to complete is even more than normal school days. not really feeling sad about that as this's what i'm experiencing every year, juz feeling bad that even though my home is so near, i can't go back often. guess this is what they call 'so near yet so far'??...

pre-u sem has juz started today. and the good news is, all the teachers said we have done a really great job. wat can i say?? we've never failed to bring out the best of us in everything we do. rather surprised to meet some of my old SC frens, singapore is really small. i was asked to dance wiv an old SC girl and she appeared to be not very enthu...the way she behaved gave me the feeling that she was looking down on us. she kept asking me what was my raw score for prelims and jae during the dance...i was kinda irritated...i mean, who cares man??!!! she even asked me why didn't i choose other jc and my answer to her was, 'i wanna stay, i'm enjoying myself here'. haha....she had nothing to say after that. it's really sad for her that until this point of time she's still having that kind of naive thought that the high-ranked schools are the best.

missing him again...but what can i do right...jia you bah...

tada.

Date: Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Time: 6:08:00 PM

we lost to aj

woohoo...juz knew in the morning that we were going to the aljunied sports hall to cheer the basketball girls on in the match. so we were dismissed at about 12.30.
but sad to say were defeated by anderson team, the score was 58-40 if i'm not wrong.
as a whole our school's team is apparently weaker that the aj team, and the whole team depended only on the national player sheryl to score. sheryl was like super pissed and emotional during the game. maybe we could have done better if she wasn't that stressed during the game.
anyway, we lost the game with utmost pride and as what mr leow always says, we may lose the game, but there's no way that we will lose the spirit. :)

saw the vj players in the sports hall juz now, and most of the players are the ex-players from SC. haha, no wonder vj can make it to the finals this year. they are so lucky to have the champion team in their school.
here's wishing them the best of luck in the finals against hwa chong.
hope that they can create history for vj, juz like what they did for SC last time.

gonna do PW again. mr kwok said that we have to go and interview the experts to get primary data. sigh, another tough job. hopefully we will be able to get the psychologists to be interviewed in time to come.

aim of the year:
do well for common test and promos.

missing home...missing him... :'-(

Date: Monday, May 16, 2005
Time: 5:17:00 PM

maths test

juz had my very first maths test today on trigo and MI, and apparently i've flunked it.
but don't know why, i din feel as sad as last time, maybe bcuz i've done my best.
honestly i din expect it to be so hard, the questions are like a few times harder than the TYS questions.
think i should really go and try other schools' exam papers...if it continues to be like this there's no doubt that MOE is gonna send me a warning letter at the end of this year.
and i DON'T want it to happen.
really scared these days, i juz flunked my physics and maths tests, the two subjects that i most expected to score.
i always say that i don't like chem but ironically, it turns out to be my best sub so far..i mean, so far. sobsob.

PW PW PW.
getting kinda stressed bcuz of that, we have to hand in the GPP by thursday and the worrying part is, we still haven't decided on the topic yet.
we've changed from one topic from another and the final one that we've decided is laughter.
hope there will be no more changes again.

and here comes the CIP project.
Ms Yamuna has promised that she's gonna call for a meeting for all CIP reps today but she dint keep her words.
i dunno whether our proposal is approved and therefore can't do any arrangement.
have less than two months to the dateline and we still haven't contacted the orphanage yet.
hopefully by the time i get her approval it will not be too late.

have like tonnes of work to complete.
gp portfolio, chinese lit, essays, physics and chem tutorials...
i'm so so so looking forward to holidays...missing home...

haha...no matter how bad the situation is, muz keep trying and striving. :-)

Date: Saturday, May 14, 2005
Time: 3:45:00 PM

slo 1st meeting

i've never felt so strongly about my school before.
honestly speaking, i liked pei yuan, but i didn't feel the spirit at all.
i like scgs, because of its excellent academic performance, facilities and good english.
in jj, we have basically NOTHING. we do not have magnificent buildings, fantastic facilities and extra-gifted students.
but in here we have the SPIRIT, the HEART and the OPPORTUNITIES.
with these, we have EVERYTHING.
and i've never come across this term called 'school spirit' before untill i came to jj.
we had our 1st special programs comm meeting for pre-u seminar today, and mr Ng was telling us that they've just received an email from a tpjc relieved teacher saying that our performance during the volleyball finals was impressive and admirable.
another one.
i mean, we didn't purposely go and do lot of funny things just to show people how great we are, it's just part of our culture that we cheer, sing and dance to show our support to the students. i never knew that we are this good until we came out of the school and saw how bad and lousy the other schools are.
and mr Ng was telling us about the leadership training that he and mr Leow went through y'dae. the teachers from all schools were like sharing the ways their schools run the programs and they realised that we are actually 3 steps ahead of them already.
and the vj SC teacher in-charge was saying that they are facing problem of students not willing to do work when it comes to shifting chairs and tables for school events.
mr Ng told him that in jj, within 5 min all the chairs will be ready for any operation of events.
we are really different from them.
SO WHAT if u are so good in academics??
the students have no initiative and the heart to serve the school. it's a very sad case.

only today then i knew that we as student helpers will not get to stay in the NTU hall. feeling kinda sad cuz it's smth that i've been looking forward to. but anyway, will be having another leadership camp on nez friday, guess it will be fun and inspiring.

don't know why, i juz don't like her.
eversince i knew that she likes ta.
i know i shouldn't be like this but i juz can't help it. i can't accept it.
but they told me i shouldn't feel so upset. afterall, there's smth that we both share and they don't. lalala.

Date: Friday, May 13, 2005
Time: 2:25:00 PM

thanks so much seniors!!

thanks so much all my beloved seniors!!!

yesterday nite all my dearest seniors threw me a party.
it was smth that i didn't expect and i was really surprised when i went down and saw the whole bunch of them there.
they bought me fruits cake and thanks to leroy and kelvin, i got a new sleeping buddy--my cute snoopy.

was really touched bcuz despite the fact that all of the seniors are so busy this term, they still tried to celebrate for me.
i know they spent quite some times preparing for the celebration and for that, i express my gratitude to them.
LUV U LOADS, SENIORS!!!

people to thank:
(my wonderful seniors @ jj)
jono, zee, leroy, kelvin, jason, alvin, afi, cindy, stefani, hoa, quan, anabelle....and manymore.

wei wen, pui khuan, trang, charlie...:)))

birthday wishes: ************(cannot tell)

---school---

finally mr koh has decided to let us have half day off on next friday to celebrate for the volleyball team's victory. which means we're gonna have a long long weekend next week. haha...well, it just means that we're gonna have tonnes of homework to complete next week. :(

mr koh received an email from the teachers of nanyang jc yesterday, which commented that our performance on wednesday was impressive. they said that we were high-spirited, gracious as well as generous.
true enough, we were the only school that cheered for EVERY team. yay, i'm so so so proud of my school. they even said that our cheerings put lots of other cheerleading teams to shame.
haha, imagine teachers from other schools actually praised the students from our school. how wonderful is that.
and most importantly, they said that our performance was ADMIRABLE!

ms ho mentioned about the upcoming maths tests on monday, and it seems that it's gonna be a killer paper.
mr oh said during physics lesson that we've done extremely bad for the test. maybe having a retest because of that. seems that the whole level has done badly.

SLO meeting starts tomorrow and i've finally decided not to pull out. it's gonna take only the first week of my holidays anyway.
anticipating pre-u sem. know it's gonna be a fun and fruitful experience.

Date: Thursday, May 12, 2005
Time: 5:25:00 PM

MY-day

finally i've turned 18. nothing much to feel elated about, it just means that i'm the so called adult now and the expectations of other on me will therefore be higher.

received msg from meai at 12 am sharp in the morning. she has never failed to be the 1st to wish me happy bdae. thim and jia hou called oso.
distance has never stopped the friendship, i'm really pleased for that.

was expecting nothing actually as i thought they were still angry with me over that incident but to my surprise they celebrated for me, and they bought me a choc cake and some pressie.
really gtareful for having this group of frens. really hope that we can erase the unpleasant memories and become real great friends again.
afterall, we are one big family.

and my dear classmates gave me lots of food! mammee, oreo and my fav choc.
though i only know them for like less than 2 months but i really feel close to them.
hope that our friendship will continue to grow...and i know it will. :)

juz realised that xian is really lonely in class nowadays. it seems that the whole class is boycotting her. even itis told me that she doesn't like her.
heard that she was disliked by her classmates when she was in sec school too.
so i guess the problem lies on her.
i'm sure if she is willing to change her attitude, the class will be more than willing to accept her as part of us again.
but the thing now is, she thinks she's so right. so, too bad for her.

people to thank:
seok huey, dymeline, desiree, marzuki, yao jun, syafiq, steph, clarence, hanh, grace, kah foong, xiao hui, my dearest s-thirteenians, meai, thim, jia hou, kin yoong, wai chuen and manymore.

thanks for making my 18th bdae a memorable one. :)))

Date: Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Time: 7:02:00 PM

WE ARE THE WINNER

went to support the volleyball team today and the girls did the school proud by winning the national champs. and most importantly, i think what impressed the other schools most was our fighting spirit when under pressure and all the cheerings.

haha...i could actually see all the stunned faces in the sports hall juz now. it's quite sad for some schools that they are top in terms of academic but has zero school spirit.

anyway, congrats to the volleyball girls and we shall look forward to the other sports competition like track and field as well as basketball.
we juz showed people what we jjcians can do.
feeling so so so happy today. :DDD

have tonnes of work to complete and feeling kinda stresed now.
can't even sleep well these days.
hopefully i can help a good night sleep today.:)

hmm...finally the day has come. can someone tell me what day is tomorrow? :P

Date: Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Time: 5:11:00 PM

lost phone...

something that i thought would never happen juz happened!

i lost my beloved phone and it's nowhere to be found. i guess i left it on the bus today morning.

that's what happens when u dun have enough sleep and dun even know what u're doing.

i tried calling the shuttle bus company and the boarding school also tried to help me but the driver still hasn't got back to them yet.
hopefully i can get back my phone in one piece tomorrow.

went to run 2.4 with xiao hui today. was rather pleased and amazed by my own perseverance and determination.
i managed to complete 6 rounds!!
didn't time as i thought i wasn't gonna finish 6 rounds. well, i guess i can increase my pace little by little day by day.
so clinching a silver is no longer mission impossible.

was rather surprised to find out that sus and sub oso dislike xian. well, i do feel bad for her at times but she deserves it with that kind of attitude.

GP content module class.
watched some show on execution and stuff. traumatized by the show.

gotta get cracking to prepare for chem test tom.
I'M GONNA PASS IT WITH FLYING COLOURS. :]

Date: Monday, May 9, 2005
Time: 5:48:00 PM

blogging...

well...havent blogged for ages. feelin kinda weird now.

was trying to browse my old blog but too bad for some reasons it no longer exists.

today had physics test and guess what? i screwed it up. was rather depressing as i studied so hard the day before and it turned out to be like that.

think i should really put in more effort...was considering whether shld pull out from SLO. really worried that i wun be able to cope. kinda lost these days, find myself struggling between school work, relationship with people and other school activities.

sometimes i will think, if not because of my special identity, i wun feel so lost and stressed.
but what can i do, this's life.

life still goes on....and i know it will be getting tougher as days wear on. it's ok, i'm telling myself. as i know, God knows what is best for me. :D

tada.